3ve’s blog…duh!

Haha..today is suppose to be a ‘better’ day. But it doesn’t seem to turn out that way…Went to church as usual. Was OK, arrive home bout 12pm only…that’s counted early for my Sundays. Coz tot of studying a bit and a quick nap before i go out with my family later in the evening again. But sigh….my plan was all mixed up, laying on my bed studying Acid and Base and the phone rang…I’ll label that phone call a rather an unpleasant one…sigh….! It’s full of scratching the ugly past and throwing words…As if studying Acid and Base wasn’t bad enuf!!

I finished the phone call as soon as possible and also my remaining Chem notes and decided it’s time for a quick nap. Of course in the middle of the nap, i was awaken by Mom knocking on the door and only managed a barely one hour sleep. Crawled out of bed to go watch movie with my family. Things were looking up. Watched "the Island" today! Not bad of a show!! But as soon as the show ends and back to reality again…was SMS-ing with a fren…and more ‘unhappy’ things occured…but gladly, he’s a good fren. (thx….u know who u are)

Feelings of the day…today, i learnt to be honest with God. The conversation between me and my fren over the SMS taught me a lot. For a long time now i have been praying for a particular ‘disturbance’ in my heart. But i can say…i’ve been cheating myself for not even telling God what i TRULY feel inside. Because i thought that the fact i felt these things in my heart and when i express it…it isn’t mature and sounds so childish. But of course, i realize…when u TRULY feel something intense in your heart, U cant hide it. Doesnt matter how hard u try….quoting from a chinese saying: "Fire can’t be wrapped up by paper". So, be honest with God, doesnt matter if it’s real stupid. Coz that is strongly what u believe in, don’t be ashame. God is not like anyone in this world. Anyway, What’s the harm of telling God? Not as if He doesnt al’d know!! Sighs…feelings are hard to control, it’s darn painful when u are not responded. Stay strong…stay strong…!

Today’s been a great day…fuu!! Can say for so long…this is one of the happiest days after i started college! (A-levels do kill people!!) Went and watch a movie today " Stealth" hahahaha…was quite nice. Went dating with dad. He’s the one wanted to watch but ended up, me enjoying it and he…well, was dizzy from all the flying around. Hahaha…

At night was fun, went to two "monkeys’"(lee san and joseph) birthday dinner at Kelana Jaya Restaurant Talipon. Not bad the food there!! Yum!! And i’m stuff!! The best part is meeting up with long lost friends again!! Aww!! So nice! Glad to see them!! Chung En’s going to Canada soon…going to miss him. Sean and Richard played a cruel joke on me!! (how dare u say i’m in a "cage") Hmm…seeing people devouring meat is an awful sight. Hahaha…The fellowship was sweet, especially those i chatted with. Brings back lots of good memories….(Luv u guys!! )

How nice that sometimes, somewhere in your life u meet friends that will truly stay with u. I realized that the RBS people really impacted my life a lot. I can truly say, i’ve never experience fellowship that way before. It’s like we’ve known each other for a life time. U guys are great, God has truly united us in one family. U guys taught me what true friendship is all about. So, cherish friends that are arond us…they are not perfect just like we are not perfect. Friends are those people who accepts us for who we are. How cool is that?! Hahaa…

HMM…today it seems no particular song is stuck to my head…but there is one sentence from the show i watched. "Two is a prime number, it can only be divided by itself, so it’s lucky number." (Actually, this guy is trying to confess to the girl at the end of the movie) Then the girl replied:" Well, i think we’re VERY lucky al’d" (Considering what they had been throughout the movie) Then there’s the quiet silence…u know….hahaha. Suddenly, the girl snickered and said: "Just say u love me, u wimp!" wow…hahaha, didnt expected that to come out.

But hey, really realize that nowadays, guys are getting Wimpier! Dun know why? Though in this new age, Girls seems to be much more initiative, but do u guys know girls still prefer a guy to take the first move..? Come on guys! If u truly love that girl, do me a favour, LET HER KNOW!! Dun beat around the bushes for a few months or years! By then she’ll be grabbed by other guys who are MAN enough to stand up and tell what they think!! Girls  get insecure easily, if they know u are hinting around and keeping them waiting, though they had feelings for u…one day she’ll definately give up and will agree to a guy she likes less but treats her better. Because, it’s more SECURE!! So, no more "Er…i think two is a luckier number than one" kinda hint! Wake up! hahaha….

Heya! After setting up for so long, i haven’t even touch this Blog. Today suddenly decided that i will update it. Hahaha…

Well, met up with Melissa after class today at Asia Cafe. Was walking there and saw someone familiar, my old classmate Jagdesh was having lunch there, and guess what? He’s hanging out with Andrew from RBS, small world eh? Then eventually, i met up wit Sean oso with Melissa.

We had a nice lunch, blurted out the struggles that for so long we had hide inside. Nice to chat with a friend that cares once again! Thx Mel! Luv ya! After lunch, she rushed to class as i drove back home.

Funny how things just happens in life. Somethings we don’t want it to happen, but it seems so out of our control. And somethings we so deperately wanted it to happen, but we just hav to admit there are things that we can’t do. A painful awakening at times, but this is life. Life’s unfair but who told u it was suppose to be fair?

Many things we did in our lifes that we are just not proud of. Looking back at the times we regretted doing something or not doing something. But whatever step we took in life…dun look back. Be courageous and face the decision we have made. Stop doing things that are stupid, turn around, a new world we might find…

~SonG Got StUck in My H3ad~

Jay Chow’s "Excuse-Jie Kou"

Fan zhe wo men de zhao pian, xiang nian ruo yi ruo xian,

Qu nian de dong tian, wo men xiao de hen tian,

Kan zhe ni ku qi de lian, dui zhe wo shou zai jian,

Lai bu ji ting jian, ni yi zhou de hen yuan.

Ye xu ni yi jing fang qi wo, ye xu yi jing hen nan hui tou,

Wo zhi dao shi zi ji chuo guo, qing zai gei wo yi ge li you shuo ni bu ai wo…

Jiu suan shi wo bu dong, neng bu neng yuen liang wo,

Qing bu yao ba fen shou dang zhuo ni de qing qiu

Wo zhi dao jian chi yao zhou, shi ni shou shang de jie kou

Qing ni hui tou, wo hui pei ni yi zhi zou dao zui hou,

Jiu suan mei you jie guo, wo ye neng gou ceng shou,

Wo zhi dao ni de tong, shi wo gei de cheng ruo,

Ni shuo gei guo wo cong rong, chen mo shi ying wei bao rong,

Ru guo yao zhou, qing ni ji de wo,

Ru guo nan guo, qing ni wang le wo…

~This song is not a song that reflects what i wanna say to someone. But more of answering someone, many things we can just forget, but many will stay and leave marks in our hearts forever. Many things can be rescued and cured, but unfortunately many can’t. Just wanna say "Sorry, i ain’t turning back no more". From the lyrics "The excuse to your pain is to insist on leaving…"  Cant agree more.