3ve’s blog…duh!

Hehe…feeling a bit sorry not updating for two days al’d. Not tat i didnt find the time…jus tat write halfway and i deleted it. : P Anyways…these few days had been…erm…normal. College then came back…etc etc etc…u know the story. I stayed home and passed 12 midnite last nite while playing 02Jam. So sad la…hahahaha!

Today didnt do much…except for sleeping la…i woke up buot 9.00am to go for my dance class at 10am. Hehehe…today was fun la!! Coz learnt a few neat tricks…and the dance is getting better…by tat means getting more and more complicated and faster. Hahaha…then came back…hang around and slept again. Was awaken by one of my long lost fren Tee Loon. Catched up a little. Then suddenly, we were cut off, he didnt call back..hmm, wonder whether he got caught by his boss or not. Hahaha….he was working then. (So sad wan…Merdeka oso work!) Hehehe…

Thought of the day? Well, as i said…i’ve been sleeping a lot. The biggest reason is not because i’m tired…i think it’s because i’m running away…again. Hahaha…dun wanna think!! So, the only way is to sleep. Oh ya, i had a dream…was not a good one. Dun know whether it’s telling me something or not…In my dream..it was so weird, i had wat i should hav wanted, yet i’m still waiting. Waiting for someone to grab hold of me and pull me out of wat i’ve been living in. The dream ended b4 tat ’someone’ came. Feelin of emptiness still there…not matter wat i try oso still there. I feel ashame actually, God should be my everything and i’m here feeling empty. Sigh…i hav a long way more to learn. I didnt know wat path to take. So now i’ve decided to sit down in between paths and see wat happens. I dun know how long i can sit there, and how long before the paths are going to stay there. But for now…i hav no choice. Unless i can find a reason to dust the dirt off my bum and get going again. I’ve been doing too much (at least i think i do) so now…i dun wanna do anymore.

SonG GoT StUcK

"Looking Through Your Eyes" by The Corrs

Look at the sky tell me what do you see
Just close your eyes and describe it to me
The heavens are sparkling with starlight tonight
That’s what I see through your eyes

I see the heavens each time that you smile
I hear your heartbeat just go on for miles
And suddenly I know why life is worthwhile
That’s what I see through your eyes
That’s what I see through your eyes

Here in the night, I see the sun
Here in the dark, our two hearts are one
Its out of our hands, we can’t stop what we have begun
And love just took me by surprise, looking through your eyes

I see a night I wish could last forever
I see a world we’re meant to see together
And it is so much more than I remember
More than I remember
More than I have known

Here in the night, I see the sun
Here in the dark, our two hearts are one
Its out of our hands, we can’t stop what we have begun
And love just took me by surprise, looking through your eyes
Looking through your eyes

(This song has two version, one by the Corrs and the other by Leann Rimes, the tune is the same only the lyrics are different. I chose this coz it’s the version i fell in love with.)

~hehee…i use to adore this song…but i somehow forgot about it. Hahaa..funny way i was reminded of it. i was in Mr Sam’s office and three of us were like looking in his computer to play songs..(well, we found other ’silly’ things oso!!) Haha…and here is the song tat we found. I use to wish i could share this song wit someone!! hahaa..sound so childish! But no matter in wat age, everybody wants to be loved~

Everybody…we shall mourn for our holidays has left us only good memories…we shall oso bid our sleep, our lates nites, and late mornings goodbye! I WILL MISS U!!! *sniff sniff*. Hahaha…buat kecoh eve ni…So, tomolowe hav to step back into school life again! I hope u guys enjoyed ur holidays!! Hahah…i know i did!

Today didnt really do much…hehehe…just try to use my last day of holiday as much as possible! Well, as usual, went church today…hehehe…quite OK la! Heheeh….actually was invited by Jiunn Wey to go Subang parade to hav lunch with a whole bunch of church members wan…but didnt go la…coz..all the ‘old’ people’s gathering!! Hahaha…(I’m only 18!!) So, went back home and rested a while. Then Mom wanted to go shopping in One Utama for dresses for the annual dinner. So, went there with her, we practically went to every shop to find for a suitable one. But after three hours there, we ended up buying four pillow cases…(-_-") so…silly rite? Hahahaha…

Anyways, we came back and i straight went to sleep. By the time i wake up, it was al’d bout 8.30pm!! LOL! Then ate dinner and watched television. Then i went and look for all the books tat i need for tomolo..hahah..so funny!! I can’t remember wat books i need al’d!! Muhaahhaha…

Thought of the day! Well, been a confusing day. A day tat i tot a lot oso. I jus happened to read back the things i wrote in RBS last nite. The prayers tat i wroite almost everynite in RBS b4 i go to sleep…brings back a lot of memories. Many sweet ones and i oso see how God works until now. The prayers tat came true…and oso the guidance of God for those tat didnt. Happy memories tat time can be sad memories now. As I read the hopes i had tat time…i dun know why i felt sad…today in my hand now is the journal tat i cherish so much. Each and every page i still remember who sat by me while i wrote it,  where i wrote it, when i wrote it. I’m really glad tat RBS decided to ‘advice’ us to do journalling. It’s a great thing to start. Though hard to finish…but as i look back…i’m so so so grateful tat i wrote down tat moment of my life. I’m gonna read my journal tonite…and see wat will i feel. Trying to get back tat "hmmph!!" Hahaha…

Hmm…nowadays the songs just dun seem to get stuck in my head anymore….ish!! I think my brain power has been used for other purposes!! *SIgh* I wan to hav a song stuck in my head!!! hahaha…maybe tomolo!

Hmm…looks like writing this blog is being an addiction! HAhaha…well, to day was fairly a good day. I woke up quite late…bout 12.30pm…becoz mom and dad was trying to irritate me by taking turns to call me up every half an hour!! Hahaha…weird parents i hav!!

Then i got a great breakfast..heheh sandwich!! Yeah!! I love Sandwich! Hahaha..watched a few comedies on television, and got prepared to go for Teen’s Care Group. A fairly normal day la…But Uncle Dexter was there too..to ‘observe’ i guess…hmm…hahahah!! Then continued on to the field..everything was going great…playing captain ball wit kids reqiure a LOT of energy. Hahaha…finally at the final 5 points, the losers are to run the field once. I was definate not to run…coz i was sooooo tired al’d!! Hahaha…the first 4 points for our team was scored by madamoiselle, hahaha..leading them 4-0. Hehehe..at the last score, someone went and banged me as i was getting the ball…dielor…my leg kena sparin again!! AIh!! On the same leg tat hasn’t heal yet!! It was so painful, but b4 i grab my leg, i passed the ball al’d. And they scored it!! YEah!! Hahaha… (At least i dun hav to circle the field once!) at nite is pretty much normal la…hahahha…no more injuries i hope la!! Soon, holiday  going to be over…wonder how college life will be again!

Thought of the day…well, a fren said…i’m not ok. I asked why?? How could he/she tell? He/she replied:"becoz…when u r ok, u talk a lot, but u r silent." Well, this fren is so sensitive, i’m actually happy he/she noticed. But, really…i noticed the change myself…something is eating me inside out. How do u know something is gone within u? How do u replace something tat u’ve treasure deeply in ur heart?

This is a song tat is very meaningful to a dear fren. So, i wanna dedicate this lil’ part for him/her. ( My dear fren, i wish i could do something for u to help, but all i know is, i could only pray for u…Best of everything in life my fren!)

~When she loved me~ by Sarah Mclachlan

When somebody loved me,
Everything was beautiful
Every hour we spent together lives within my heart
And when she was sad,
I was there to dry her tears
And when she was happy,
So was I
When she loved me

Through the summer and the fall
We had each other, that was all
Just she and I together,
Like it was meant to be

And when she was lonely,
I was there to comfort her
And I knew that she loved me

So the years went by
I stayed the same
But she began to drift away
I was left alone
Still I waited for the day
When she’d say I will always love you

Lonely and forgotten,
I’d never thought she’d look my way
And she smiled at me and held me just like she used to do
Like she loved me
When she loved me

When somebody loved me
Everything was beautiful
Every hour we spent together lives within my heart

When she loved me

~Being loved is harder than loving…Cherish those who do and love those who don’t…Anything in the world beats being loved by someone. Every moment of ur life seems to lits up… ~

Well, soon b4 u know it…the holidays had come and gone…sigh!! Hahaha…but anyways…honestly, i missed college a bit. Quite excited nout getting back to school again. But i know…sure very busy after that!! Aih!! Hahaha…SEcond Sem, Here I COME!!

Today today today…hmm….oh ya!! Hahaha…i wanted to go college today to settle my registration thingy…so, was wit the two jokers again. Wanted to catch up for lunch afterwardsmar…so, we went lor. Gladly, i found a good parking space, and i found out i still got my scholarship!! WooooOoOHOoooOo!! Hahaaha…it was great! Praise the Lord of course. Hahah…just as i tot i was having a great day, i realized, i left my key in the car.. (-_-;) Sigh…sad nya!!! HAhaha…so, three of us walked to the mechanics’ shop asking for help. Hehehe…so simple they do and they get to hav a free meal afterwards!! Ish ish!! Sakit pocket saya!!  

~Walking out after got results~

~Inti Subang~ (Wilson very free a….)

But the rest of the day was great, we went Ming Tien to eat my favourite Don RIce!!! YUMMY!!! I love it so much man!! Hahaha…Then headed back home and watched America’s Top Model!! WAlau!! The girls there all very ‘cun’ man!! Hahaha…but can see so much competition going on!! The pressure must be crazy!! Then i went back home and washed my car shiny clean…but too bad!!! It’s raining out there!! Ish ish!! Hahaha…rest for a while only then Sin Meng come to pick me to YSK al’d. Hehehe…so tiring la!! Hehehe…The speaker was from India…the speech was good. Especially the part bout his son…it was touching, yet encouraging. Makes me realize tat everything is in God’s hands…He gives and He can take away.

~OK!! Tonite, i wanna dedicate two little column for two special frens!! Hahaha…Thx guys for being wit me throughout the holidays!! Hehehe…U R GREAT!

~Rene TAy~

Ho Ho!! She a PROFESSIONAL make up artist people!! Hehehe…darn good at it too! So, if u hav prom nites or special occasions tat u want to be the lights of the floor, look for this gal ok? Hehehee…Cun leh? hehehe…

~Wilson Tan~

People people, funniest guy in the world found! (Including the cold jokes, junk, and craps…well, it comes in a package!!) Jus kiddin. Well, he’s a cool fren lar…always helps me download this and tat wan..hahaha!! Anything concerning computer, can go ask him!! Hahaha…He can put together a com in no time!! Spend one day with him, u’ll come back wit a sore jaw from all the laughing. Hahaha….

Hmmm…..i wonder wat’s wrong wit me? I asked people out, and i was rejected. Then one ‘date’ canceled last minute followed by another one the following day…Hmm?! WAT IS WRONG?? hahaha…dun take it seriously!! I was just pulling ya legs. Hahaa..nola…i understand why there was so many canceled outings…hehehe…(Hey, those guys tat happened to read this…I"M JOKING!! I totally understand!!)

Ok ok…done wit the jokes. Today…very hard to understand and to describe. Too mixed up i guess. HAaha…well…i’ve been through better days i guess. Nth much today…ate breakfast, online, went to search for songs which i didnt get. Hahaa…then went for dance. Today i brought along Rene to help. Hehee..(BIGGY THANKS for YA!!)

Thought of the day? Well…the simplest days are covered with the most complicated thoughts. I just ain’t feeling well. Something’s missing, something’s gone and i’m helpless. Feel like breaking away from all. Honestly, i’m sick of thinking bout others. i’m sick of living up to the standard. I’m sick of doing things people can’t see. I dun feel like feeling anymore. But tat’s not me….i guess it’s a God given gift and a burden i’ll hav to carry. I wanna be the one sitting one somebody’s shoulders for a change.

Today, i heard a question…"Does women tat acts tough scares all the guys away?" Heh…sori to say "Yes it does" But wat u guys dun know is….all women act tough in this era. The key word is ‘ACT’.It’s a dilenma guys wouldn’t understand. ; )

Special SOmething to SOmeone:

HEre’s a special something to someone. I’m so sorry i did wat i do. I’m so sori i didn’t do wat i should do. I hav nth more to say than to ask for ur forgiveness. Though u may never understand why i do wat i did, i’ll bite my tougue doing it. A fren told me, i hav to be cruel to be kind. I realize….tat’s not the only way…but it’s the best way. I know…i did something tat i dun ever wan u to feel, but i hav no other choices. I dun wan u to feel wat i felt b4, i dun wan u to go through wat i’ve been through….i know it’s hell. So sorry… U were dear to me…u’ll always hold a special place. Even though it’s hard for u to believe, please know tat whenever u look up the sky, remember there’s always a prayer for u. Thanks for always being there for me, thx for always trying a second time, thanks for making my life worthwhile, teaching me feelings tat i will never had felt without u, thx for all the laughter u shared, and all the tears u shed…no one will ever do tat for me again. I hope to see u off one day with a smile on my face, applausing when u found wat u truly hav been seeking for. Someday…maybe. :,) I wish u all the happiness in world, i’ll even be glad to give out some of mine to u, so ur’s may be fuller. 17 Spring time in May….thank u and sorry. May u one day shine brighter than ur favourite colour. ~^_^

It’s Killing me! I tell u…the day is eating me inside out. Silently painful. Today started out fine…at least i think it would..then suddenly, a fren called:"Hey!! Results are out in 2pm!" Shucks!! I couldn’t get it out of my mind…so, i finally made a decision to go and take it. I told Wilson, which is one of the frens tat i seek help wit making the decision. He and Rene were supportive enuf to follow me there…just in case i break down i guess….nola! Joking. But they knew how important it was to me, so, they wanted to be with me when everything goes wrong or right. HEhe…Thx guys!

Well, reached there bout 3.45pm al’d, went straight into the college with Rene, took it and saw the results…well, honestly, i dun know wat to feel. It was not good, it was not tat bad. So….didnt know la. I was only concern bout my scholarship. If i didnt manage to keep it…i dun know where i’l end up. I asked the lady to check my average, and she said it was an A. Which i highly doubt. I dun think i hav enuf to cover for an A! She must hav seen wrongly or something…i dun wanna give myself hope and all…for now, i just wanna pray that God will keep my scholarship so i can do better next semester.

After tat, we went KK to meet up wit Jessie. We ate and said funny stuffs together. It was a good moment, at least to take my mind off things. I choose not to think bout it. Later, we went back home, and tat’s more or less wat happened. Oh ya, Cuddles was sent to the groomer this morning, and he returned…looking like a schunzer…hmm, i wonder wat happened.

Thought of the day….Cant think of anything. I just hav a dreaded feeling hanging over my head. I dun know where i find the courage to stand at all in these kind of discouraging situation. I know God is watching over me. But i oso know something is different. It’s so hard to make urself believe God is in between situations like these. The brains knows it, the heart clearly doesnt conceive it. O Lord, let me be faithful!

I encountered many sad cases today, including mine. When we are desperate, we tend to cling on to anything tat gives us hope. Even though it’s false. After clinging on to it, we hold it so tightly, tat it blinds us from the truth we ought to know. We refuse believe the things tat r true, and would never wanna let go that ‘hope’…well, at least not until we’re too tired to hold on anymore. We let it go reluctantly and suffer the lost. How stupid humans can be oso. A fren said he/she is sad becoz a fren of his/her is losing the Faith. He/she felt hopeless not being able to help and to answer the question his/her fren asked. He/she asked me bout it…then i realize…i didnt know how to answer too, almost immediately, it sank in, i wasn’t in a good condition oso…tears just…fell. I hav no idea why but i was darn sad. Maybe cumulative tears. Cant seem to stop them…hah..then terbalik pulak my fren hav to advice me. But it was a darn good advice "You know wat? There’s time we can’t see GOd, but GOd always see us. So i wont give up my faith so easily." Ya…God still sees us even we cant see him. So, dun give up….. : ) (Thx!)

Today was an interesting day. Hehehe…Well, i slept late yesterday so planned to laze around on the bed this morning. But at bout 9.00am, Mom came knocking at my door. She said something tat immediately boozed me out of my bed. Hahaha…i didnt even bother wat i was wearing or how ridiculous my hair was. I practically ran out of my room. (Hmm…come to think of it, i was in quite a mess…!) Hahaa…i rushed downstairs and out to the driveway. Dad was holding it…and it was so afraid. Earlier in the morning, A Malay guy had call out to Dad. So, Dad ‘fished’ out a poor fella from the drain. She was shivering and was in pain. Dad sprayed mosquito spray on his hand and wiped it all over its body. And tiny red insects fell off. Dad said it was the red ants tat were biting her. I felt pity on her and helped dad Get rid of the red ants tat were all over her body. But after taking a closer look, Dad had his doubts. I looked closely and discovered it was not red ants at all!! It’s brown fleas all over her body. Of course we quarantined the excited Cuddles in the house. The fleas were biting and sucking her blood. Quickly, she was given a warm bath and almost all the fleas died from the medical Shampoo…(borrowed from Cuddles) She was then dried with the hair blower. Cuddles was yapping on top of his lungs wanting to meet the new girl in the house. Hahaha….She was so tired, she keep on falling asleep. I prepared warm milk for her, and she lapped up every single drop of the plate. Poor thing must hav been starved and tired. She quickly fell asleep after that, while i was still picking fleas of her. Hahaha…she didnt even care i was rolling her around, lifting her paws or picking at her face. I guess she didnt feel so comfortable in a long time al’d. Fortunately, the medicine killed 99.5%of the fleas. The ones survive was trying to attack her eyes, but of course…Eve to the rescue!! Hahaha…(honestly, i never pick dog’s flea b4..hahaha)

~MiLk PuuLeaseee!!

She slept soundly after i’m done picking the fleas. (Which were A LOT!!!) Cuddles couldnt stop looking at her and i guess they made frens! Hahaha…Cuddles were licking her nose and she wasn’t at all afraid of him. It was cute. Haha…after a short nap, she woke up, i gave her more milk. She was an active fella. I put her in a plastic box to sleep in, but she keeps on crawling out of it. HAhaha…she wants to sleep on the marble floor instead. Cuddles was all the while guarding her, refusing to leave his new girlfren. Hahaa…anyways, Dad concluded we could not keep her…becoz we al’d got one dog. It’ll be hard. So, she was sent to PAWS. Cuddles wimper, cried, and was looking for her all over the house  after she left. I was left wit a heavy heart too.

~HAppy LiL’ Gurl She Is AftErwarDs~^_^

Hahaha..u tot that was the end of my day? No it ani’t!! Hahaa…after that i went and wash the church van with andrew, sin meng and ivan. Hahaha…i was left to wipe all the windows while the guys polish the whole van wit wax. Well, fair enuf! Hahaha…then we went to Pizza Hut and celebrated Ivan’s birthday. Hehehe…it was quite a surprise for him. Had a great time catching up with each other then we went back home. I was poofed! Haha..directly, i sank into my bed and snoozed! Woke up 6.30pm and prepared everything to go to dance class. Hahaha…actually i wasn’t in a good condition of breakdancing today. My left ankle is still very swollen from the old sprain (after so long, it’s still there!!) And my chin is still left with a painful lump. Hahaa…i hav to begin to take care of myself. But nevertheless, i went and it was great. Learnt many new tricks today. All is tough, and need lots of training and practice. But i’m sure soon i’ll get the hang of it. Hehehee…

Thought of the day…with such a fully pack day do i still hav time to think? Hahaha….amazingly, i do. HAhaa…somethign has change in my life. I sense it, but i dun know wat it is. I’m not being paranoid but i just feel something’s different bout me al’d. well, watched a chinese mtv today, a guy told something to a girl in a cafe, then the girl cried. He reached out and wipe the tears from her face, but the girl looked away and left. Well, somehow, it touches me. I mean…if u r going to wipe her tears away, dun make her cry. And if u hav to make her cry, dun wipe her tears away, it won’t do much help either. And a message said, wat would u do if the only person who can make u stop crying is the person who made u cry? I think something is missing in me, tat’s y i feel weird. But i just can’t remember wat it is…hmm… /: ‘ forgetful me…

~Tell me if u know….thx!~

Haha!! Guess wat…? Since it’s the holidays…it’s only normal for me to get a whole lot of movies rite? Hahaha…just by today only i’ve watched two of them. Well, one of them in my living room couch…the other in the cinema. Both are creative work of art i must say! Today i watched Charlie and the Chocolate factory…not bad for a creative show! Hahaha…believe me, when i saw creative, it means Cr3AtIVe! I wonder how Tim Burton (the producer) think of all these things!! Hahaha…who would think of transporting real chocolate through television? Haaha… i dun wanna spoil the fun, go watch it urself!

The other movie is er…Robots. Hehehe…another nice and creative one. The jokes are good and is darn funny. U should catch it if u like digital animation. It’s cool! Hehehe…well, the rest of the day i spent on my bed…doing u-know-wat. (Come on, it’s the holidays!!) Hahaha…i guess tat’s wat i’m suppose to do rite?

Thought of the day…today was at church. Listening to Oon Eu Jin talking bout effective prayers. Sadly enuf…i hav to admit, i was not fervent in my prayer. I tried several ways to keep up my prayer life…but seems draggy as it gets along. I know i still hav a long way to go b4 i could find the DESIRE again tat i felt during RBS. How i wish i could feel tat amazing zeal once again. But hey, Cameron Highlands ain’t gonna be the place where i feel ‘high’! Even down below here, i should be able to feel it. Wat Eu Jin said was very true. There’s 7 essential things u must hav in order to hav effective prayers.

1. Righteousness (not ur own, but God’s)

2. Faith and trust

3. Desire

4. Persistancy

5. Obedience

6. Word of God

7. Service

Hehehe…dun know whether i even qualify for one of the condition. I feel so….empty not talking to God. And when i do, i feel…tat i dun know wat to tell Him, which is silly!! (God knows everything…!!) Sigh…the feeling in my heart is just indescribable. Only God knows i guess :p

Well, today is like any normal day. Hehehe..nth much to say! But hav been thinking a lot…later u’ll see! Hehehe…then er, my jaw has been getting better. For those who didnt notice, Hehehe…i hurt one of my nerve in my jaw. So, it’s swollen and real painful. I took Panadol to ease the pain! TaT’S HOW BAD IT IS! I just keep on applying some chinese medicine…miraculously, it works. So, it got better. But i talk funny….hmmm…hahaha!

One week of holiday has come and go…one more week left of paradise b4 stepping back into the hectic world again! Sigh…today Gurdave called me and said he scored 86 for Biology…which is good, and he reminded me of my own results…i dread at the thought of it! Sigh! I seriously dun know how to open the letter and peek inside for the results! Dun even dare to look! Anyways…God’s will be done…and can’t help it if it sux rite? I’ve al’d done my best.

Thought of the day…today is not my day…i mean…not as if anything bad had happened, but..there’s a whole lot of things to think about. I chatted wit Z yesterday till 2.30am in the morning…i seriously didnt feel like talking bout it, but i was kinda ‘forced’ into it becoz of politeness. Z made me think bout a lot of stuff…Z kinda confused my thoughts. I hav decided on certain things but Z just came and jumble everything up. Z left me high and dry. Having no clue wat i want now in life. So, felt quite empty lor…..

I feel so tired keep on giving pieces of myself out to people who won’t appreciate it. But somehow…i just can’t stop. I feel the pain and the hurt…but i just can’t stop giving. I darn feel like giving up. But there’s something inside me that still refuses to stay down. Maybe it’s my stubborness…i dun know and i hav no clue. So negative lar….today’s blog. Hahaha…well, it’s a part of wat i’m thinking…so…dun take it the wrong way ok? Dun do all the things i do..do the things God tells u to do.

SOng GOt sTUck

"Bring Me To Life" by Evanescence
(feat. Paul McCoy)

how can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I’ve become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

now that I know what I’m without
you can’t just leave me
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

Bring me to life
(I’ve been living a lie, there’s nothing inside)
Bring me to life

frozen inside without your touch without your love darling only you are the life among the dead

all this time I can’t believe I couldn’t see
kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
without a thought without a voice without a soul
don’t let me die here
there must be something more
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

(Bring me to life)
I’ve been living a lie, there’s nothing inside
(Bring me to life)

~Who’s there? Call my name….~

Heahahah…hav been living two days without internet….Cham a!! HAhaha..bro went to Pulau Perhentian without paying the bill (again) Sigh! Hahaha…luckily Mom paid it for me today!! Yeah! Thanks Mom!

Well, these few days had been great, hahaha…catch up with some Sleep! Hehehe…too much in fact, i realize i’m so use to so few hours of sleep, now i can’t sleep long…. Aw..MAN!Hehehe…asked a fren out yesterday for Movie…GOT REJECTED!! Hahaha..kidding. Then finally i got to go out for movie oso…with another fren. Watched "Bewitched" hahahaha…funny movie. Nicole Kidman is REAL cute!! Hahaha…catch the show if u haven’t watch it before!! *Thx the fella who went out wit me oso Herbal eggs on me next time!* Hahaha….

Heheehe….Been dancing till the roof comes down nowadays. Hehehe….Nice! If anyone got nice R&B or hip hop songs, pls tell me!! Thx! And break dancing really is my kinda sport! Hahaha…hope to learn more soon! Hehe…my legs and hands haven’t stop for one day after since holidays begun. Get ON the DAnce FlooR!!

Thought of the day. A fren asked me, wat is love? Do i know wat is love? Yes i do. I’m not kidding. I know wat is love. I feel sad for certain ppl who had recieve love all this while..yet still deny they had love. I just dun understand. They live their lives holding grudges and wine about it. I just dun get it. I feel like screaming at them to cherish wat they hav around them. It’s so true we always ask God whether He’s real. But we see the setting sun everyday and breathe the air…everything around us is the evidence. Only if we stop and notice. Same goes with life. And for this friend, i’m convinced he still doesn’t believe me. But someday, when God works, definately, it’ll be different. Lord, U are magnificent! Luv U MUch!

SoNg gOt StuCk

"Breakaway" by Kelly Clarkson

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I’d just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I’d end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)

Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed I could break away

[Chorus:]
I’ll spread my wings and I’ll learn how to fly
I’ll do what it takes til’ I touch the sky
I’ll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won’t forget all the ones that I love
I’ll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway

[Chorus]

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around revolving doors
Maybe I don’t know where they’ll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I’ll spread my wings
And I’ll learn how to fly
Though it’s not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won’t forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

~Wow….hehehe…LOve this song!! Hehehe, IT’S so ME!!