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Hey!! How was Chinese New Year for u? Wo…for me, everything is HOT! Hehehe…(eh, i dun mean me k?) I mean the weather is scorching! Seriously! But of course the Ang Pau’s are great! Hehehe…Tonite having a good rest at home! Finally! Tomolo is another travelling day, going to Seremban. At least not so far away ler…and more Air-con there compared to Taiping! Muahaha!

Went back TAiping for 4 days, not bad ler…a bit boring as usual, but got a lot of nice Food!! Cham lor…Fat al’d!! Hehehe…dried meat, pinapple tarts, mandarin oranges, cookies, cakes, chocolates…etc etc! Wow!! Hehehe…visited my grandmother, she’s 89 this year! Geng leh? She couldnt walk and talks real slowly, cant recognize everyone, but when ask wanna play mahjong or not? She’s quick to say Yes! Hehehe…so, we played Mahjong with her to keep her company, but it was so slow, we can drink tea and read newspaper while waiting for her! Hahaha…but it was for fun u know? (No gambling involve of course) It was for her to exercise her mind. Though she cant really talk or response, but once i came in the kitchen while the maid was feeding her, she pointed at me and said " You…are…." and so i asked  :"Ah Mah, u remember who am i or not?" She started thinking….but made no response, so i helped her, i said:" I’m ‘hao po chai" ah…" Calling myself by the nickname she gave me when i was young. She looked at me and said:" Big girl al’d cannot be called ‘hao po chai’ al’d lor…" I laughed then i said:" This nickname is given by u, hav to used wan!" She looked at me blurry…without a word, she turned to the maid slowly, pointing at me and said:"Cantik" *Sweat* Jus when u think she’s old and blur, she surprises u! Hahaha! Then the maid said to me :" Ah Mah Mah masih pandai cakap melayu! Selalu cakap dengan saya!" Though she’s aging, but i can see she’s very alert, jus tat the brain is not turning as fast as it used to be. While playing Mahjong oso the same…though super slow, but when u look at her cards, she still can arrange it in a proper sequence! So dun bully ur old grandparents ya?!

So….in taiping, catch up wit quite a lot of sleep oso ler…but eyes still like panda! No wonder no one wan!! Hahhaha!! Joking! Panda cute rite?! Muahahah! Anyways, during the second day of Chinese New Year, Kevin, Mei ling and I decided to hav morning jogging together at Taiping Lake. Hehehe…of course at last, it turned up to be a walk ler…the Taiping Lake was great, the scenery was nice! Jus tat it wasnt the season for the Water Lily to bloom…too bad! Then we had Dim sum together. It was great to meet up frens from back home in Taiping! Hehehe….

Thought Of the Day….Can someone fall in love with someone tat doesnt feel the same? Why is fate always so cruel? Why is our sight always clearer after being washed by tears? Why does a leap of faith carries so much pain and fear? In the end, is it worth while? The price we pay for something we dun understand…

Hey hey!! Yea!! One week of holiday, with no traffic jam to college, no boring lectures, great food all the way, get to stay up late, wake up late, meeting up wit favourite couz and relatives, and even a lil’ richer!!….WOW!!! Wat could be better?? Hehehe…well, Happy Chinese New Year to ALL!!

These days are so busy, i cant wait till the holidays are here! Wow! I stayed on from 8am till 8pm yesterday in college. After class at 2pm, started painting the CF Camp banner, finally finished it, and it’s superbly gigantic! Hahahaha…looks not bad too!! (Must see who draw wan ok? ahahaha Jk ler!! All glory to God!!) Then after tat, cannot resist the urge to play basketball! Hahahaha…coz there’s a girl playing on that evening, so i wanna recruit her into the basketball team! Hahahhaa…she’s an accurate shooter, so, Joseph and I went on ahead and played 2 on 2 with her and another guy…hehe, not bad, we won! Hahhaha…anyways, it was a great sweat out ler….then watched some other professionals play and also watch some breakdancing and taekwondo tat was going on in college…Hehehe…looks ike after school, there’s still a lot of energy left. Hahah!

Besides tat, yesterday Miss Irene played one of her famous ‘games’ all are to be in a group of five and answer questions asked. Our team was the with the lowest mark coz actually, she gave us questions tat are very hard…a but unfair ler….anyways, we still kena ‘punishment’ i hav to write 40 times wat is coronary thrombosis and spasms…sad rite? Actually i feel quite pissed, i guess Miss Irene noticed tat my team members were not satisfied with it too….

Today Basketball had it’s first general meeting, the turn up was Okler…and a lot of things were getting done lor…thank God tat’s it’s progressing! Hehehe…knew a few more new people…hehehe more to bully! Muahahha…wah, i sound so evil, nola…i mean more people to ask for help from! *snickers* hehehhe

Thought of the day…Em…lately hav not been feeling exactly great, very emotional u should say…too much for my own good. Trying to be optimistic. God has been faithful to uphold me through the way. Suddenly all the nightmares comes rushing back to me. The hurt tat haunted me b4, never cease to terrifies me. No matter how hard i push the gas pedal, the bitterness refuse to stay behind. The pain is a reminder that i’m alive. A dancer dancing to the beat of a dying heart. Can we jus leave certain things behind? Some place where i will forget and throw away the key? Dun wanna go back there, dun wanna be trapped in the web of confusion. But everything around me says a different thing to me……throw away the voices in my head. Surround myself with the serenity of the deep waters…a temporarily escape with lasting effects. Calm the raging war within me…Because of u….love songs are nightmares, screaming false illusions and sad songs are morphins, cheating ur mind from pain….

Hey Hey, i havent been really updating my blog i know…very busy lately, Valentine’s coming up, got preparation for church (Not for myself ler!) Hahaha…And CF camp, then basketball team…etc etc. My studies oso quite pressuring coz it’s short semester, they are trying to squeeze everything in by the 8th week….Kesian! So, pls forgive me for the brief descriptions of my life for the pass few days…

Well, wat happened ya? I went and watch a basket ball tournament on Sunday evening. It was some Inti basketball players against some players from some temple association(??) Hahaha..anyways, we had a good start, but soon it didnt work out tat well for us. Hehehe…but they tried their best, and was bout 7 points away only ler….quite close. After the Chinese New Year still got another round to go. Hehehe…it was exciting, very long didnt watch tournament al’d, to feel the adrenaline. Hehehhee….

Then on Monday, got Bio lab. So we are suppose to do two experiments based on allelles (Means the genetic traits tat is inherited) i realized tat by crossing ur fingers from both hands together can determine ur dominant and recessive allelle. Hehehe….and i’m recessive. I cross my right thumb over my left thumb. Hehehe…weird. And the other experiment, we hav to take a blood test, by urself. Yes, we are suppose to prick our finger and collect our blood to test wat blood type we are. They hav a special puncture needle tat is inserted into a pen like tube. which u then contract the back of the spring, and press to release the needle into ur finger. Hahaha…all of us are like small kid playing doctor, applying ethanol to our fingers and recieving the ‘injection’ Hahah!Well, it was scary at first, but when the needle hit the spot, it was not painful, it’s painful only after when u squeeze the blood out of the wound. We needed three drops of blood. And apparently i’m B+. Hehehe…thank God! If negative then dangerous. Hehehehe…. Until now, my finger still hurt. Hehehehe…i think i prick mine a lil’ too deep. Hehehe…

Today i car pool wit a fren to college. Hehehe…kesian the fella, we were a bit late, and was stuck in traffic jam tat was quite bad. And the fella needed to use the toilet. Hahaha….! But we arrive on time. Then after tat we went for a movie in 1 Utama, watched the ‘midnight in tokyo" the one wit leon lai…not bad lor…better then i expected. Hehehhee…the ending a bit not so good though… i dun like sad endings. Hehehehe….while in 1 Utama, met jia yow who is working there, and Jessie, meeting a fren there. HAhaha..wat a small world!

Thought of the day…Em…had a lot on my mind nowadays. I realize tat sometimes when we wish bout something, we better think twice wat we are hoping for. I guess tat’s y God says no to our prayers sometimes. My brain is like so darn confused o wat i wan now…jus cant figure out wat to do. And…i dun know whether this is true or not, but i feel like i’m constantly being tested. I wanna at least hav a period of life where things can run smoothly for me, jus for a while, jus a fragment of a lifetime would be satisfying at this moment. Well, clinging on to God can be so hard at times. I really hope to get a break. But i know God has a purpose in me. And i wanna do stuff tat pleases Him. I dun wan Him to shake His head everytime He looks down on me. I wanna see Him smile. I tried and tried, but as to any extend if satisfactory for Him, i’m really in doubt. Maybe i’m jus slow…i should be able to know His will for me rite? When i tot it was His will, i’m wrong, when i tot it is not, then the symptoms shows tat i’m wrong too. Confusing! Sigh!!

Hey hey!! This week has been the most exciting week of my life! Hahaha…talk bout twist and turn and life changing!! Ok…first, on Monday, i was told tat my face was quite terrible on the front page of The Sun newspaper! Hahaha!! Thank u for those who noticed me in front of the pages!! Hahaha!! Even my lecturers came to me and ask. Hahaha!! Ok ok ! i admit it was a bit stupid and silly, but hey, i was at the front page dudes!! Who cares?! Hahaha! And oh, though it was the first time i talked to Suresh, i hav to smash an egg on his head! HAhaha!! Sorry! Btw, we became frens after our pictures were on the newspaper! Hahahaha!! Great way to make frens eh?

Then i oso hav to take care of the basketball booth during Intima week. It’s a time where all the clubs come together and set up their booths to pull students in to the club. Hahaha!! Not bad, basketball managed to get bout 50 over ppl! Quite glad. Cf was doing quite great oso!! I’m glad, had fun hanging out wit the ppl there. Made quite a few new frens. It was great! Realized tat i dun know quite a lot of ppl in Inti, some even ask me if i’m first semester there. Wow! Hahahaha….officially, first time playing basketball in Inti with the basketball ppl. They are extremely good man!! Hahaha! A lot of talent. I think Inti basketball team Rockx!! Only if i had more organizing ppl!!! Hahhah!!

The turn up for CF was not bad either!! Today’s CF got a quite a few new ppl! Hehehehe…we laughed and sang along. I jus pray tat by holding tis post, i can make a break through in Inti college. : ) As i hav never done anything like this b4, and dun hav experience doing it. I jus pray tat God will guide me along the way…heheheh….

Thought of the day…well,these few days, made me think botu a lot of things. I was really super busy, but was happy. I know my life is getting better, getting off the tough road. I’ve found new purposes in life. And really…jus by being urself, u can achieve a lot of things. I know i’ve not been happy these few days, but i hav met one person tat tot me a lot bout happiness. Coz this fella always wears a smile on his face. Nad never let life pull him/her down. Hehehe…jus when u think u r going down, God lets u hav a glimpse of His providence. So tat u will not lose hope in things and let u know tat u r never beyond Hope!! I jus pray tat i’ll do God’s will, and help me choose the right path. : )

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Hey hey…today is suppose to be the ‘cursed’ day when freddy will come out and chop ppl to death. Hahaha…sori to burst ur bubbles, but today cant get any better. Hahaha…i was planning to hav lunch wit matt, but he was busy….(Oh ya!! Btw, Matt told me tat i was not suppose to tell ppl tat he was the one who ask me to put "Matt is cute" in my previous blog…hehehe….SAY LA EARLIER!) Muahahaha….Matt was busy and so i was walking to my car ready to go back home. Then my hp recieved a sms, it sayd "AUP Office" i was confused and decided to go back into college to see wat was going on. When i found my fren in Aup Office only he apologize tat it was a wrong sms. Hehe…we stepped out of the office, and right in front of us was the Fly FM road show. And they r giving out goodies. My frens and I somehow got caught in the game and won some great prizes. Hehehee…i skipped rope, clipped clips on my face, and threw basket ball shots, at last i got a goodie bag, (which has extra two packets of sanitary pads given by the guy-frens who go tit.) Hahaha…then RM28. Hahaha..not bad huh? They dare u to do stupid stuff and win cash prizes. My fren sacrificed his jeans for RM50…hahaha…it was shredded afterwards. Hahaha..then a guy was bombed wit eggs on his head for RM30. (i was one of them who smashed eggs on his head, hey, it was fun ok?) Hahaha….a guy ate was challenged to eat quail eggs…RM2 for each. Eat RAW quail eggs Wit the shell together. Hhahaa..not bad la…eating catfood oso got…etc etc. It was fun though. Actually motorola was there to hav roadshow oso, but all the students didnt pay attention to them. Feel so sory for them ler…

Later in the evening, i went back home and rested. Then went ahead to the basketball court. Met some new frens. Went to Pasar Malam wit them…they were Ching Yi’s frens ler…then went to Mamak to talk. Hahaha…laughed and had fun lor…not bad. Redefines the meaning of a black friday for me…hahaha!! So, ppl, dun be so superstitious!! Hehehehe….

Thought of the day…aiyoyo!! So many things to do ler…sien nya!! My brain is filled wit things, i cant even think properly! Eve, do this do tat…cham nya!! Especially homeworks, u think we kebal wan meh? Cis! But sigh…wat to do ler? Chose al’d this path…These days, God has been gracious to me. He answered my prayers for my future. My fren told me tat i can be accepted into UPM to study Vet. All i hav to do now is to study hard and find out how much it is…then i’m off my way. But i need to be sensitive and leave space for Him to intercept in case that’s not the path He wants me to go on. Thank u so much Lord!

Nowadays has been blurry. I dun know why i feel a sudden assurance. Tat i hav no need to be sad. But i know i shouldnt depend on this feeling, coz one day, if i step too deep, i wont be able to crawl out. So so confusing! Dun know of i’m making the rite choice? Or maybe i’ve got it all wrong? Oh no! Tell me pls, b4 it’s too late!

Well, dun ask me why is tat my blog title, Matt is asked me to put it on! Hahaha…anyways, as long as it makes him happy, i dun mind putting it on. So, classes has started for one week al’d. And during third day of class al’d got quiz, and my weekends are packed wit assignments to do…sigh! Sad case la…today got replacement class somemore! Cis! It was in the morning when i woke up, it tot me forever to crawl out of bed! Hhahaha..bu i promised miss Irene will be there, so i go only lor…it was raining the whole say man! And 11am got meeting in the church. Valentine’s coming up, hav a lot to plan….well, Valentine’s is a horror to single ppl! Double sigh! Hahaha..but i got God to serve. After meeting i tot of going home and change for teens’ time. But i realized i was too tired to get out of bed, and didnt woke up until 5.30pm when i’m suppose to fetch ppl back home form games…felt a bit guilty tat i ponteng youth. But i was really tired…cant even open my eyes…

Yesterday stayed over after class to hav meeting for Camp, then to draw the banner. It turned out quite good though! Hehehe…wah cheh! Went and played basketball after tat, bout 5.45pm…didnt start playing till an hour later coz a lot of ppl in the court. And after the second shot, it started to rain real heavily…everyone scattered back home, running in the rain. Hahaha..it was fun though. Then had dinner wit Rene and Juinn wey, havent seen im for quite soem time al’d…we ate in an italian restaurant near SJMC. Turns out the food there was great. And becoz Jiunn Wey was 45 minutes late, we were hungrily gobbling food down. Hahaha…three of us finished five dishes…not bad huh? And the price is not bad oso…hehe, catched up a bit here and there. Enjoyed good fellowship. : )

Thought of the day…had been in dilenma for very long al’d. Didnt hav the chance to act on it though. Funny some sweet memories can be bitter…heard this phase today "Sometimes life will knock us down, but the most important is tat we dun let it keep us down." Sometimes difficulties is a blessing in disguise. I know tat this phase is true, but somehow i hope i can see wat’s the blessing behind the difficulty tat is starring at me now. It’s hard to see behind the wall tat blocks the view. I jus go day by day, hoping for progress everyday, but ends up battered at nite on my bed. Only God is my refuge, a confirmation tat as long as i continue on, i would see the something in the dark.

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Hei Se Mao Yi   by Jay Chow

Yi jian hei se mao yi   Liang ge ren de hui yi

Yu guo zhi hou   Geng nan wang ji

Wang ji wo hai ai ni

Ni bu yong zai yi   Liu lei ye zhi shi gang hao er yi

Wo zao yi jing dai zai gu di

Wo zhi dao bu neng zai liu zhu ni   Ye zhi dao bu neng mei you gu qi

Gan ji ni   Rang wo yong you qiu tian de mei li

Kan zhe na bai se de qing ting    Zai kong zhong wang le qian jing

Hai neng bu neng   Zhong xin bian zhi   Nao hai zhong qi mao qiu de ji yi

Zai shou wo ai ni   Ke neng yu ye bu hui ting

Hei se mao yi   Chang zai na li   Jiu rang hui yi yong yuen ting zai na li

~Ru guo neng na me rong yi jiu rang hui yi yong yuen ting zhi jiu hao le! Na zhi shao wo men de hui yi bu hui jian jian bian cheng ku fa. Xian zai…tai zhi le ba?

Hav no need to say, today is the first day of coll. I wouldnt say it was great, i wouldnt say it was bad either. Something in between. It’s nice to meet up wit frens and classmates again. Everything feels quite the same, except tat Sri KL is jamming up the place with their big cars. Cis! I’ve gotta find a way to get through them! Anyways, back to the first day of coll this sem. A lot of new faces i’ve seen. And oso some frens who hav enrolled themselves in Inti. I myself jus got registered again. There was a whole lot of ppl in the room though. I had a break and went to McD’s jus like usual. Hehehe…class al’d started. Got a taste of organic chemistry. Well, i shall say tat it’s not sweet tasting! Fuu! And the thing is, Miss Susan is gone for good. She’s no longer teaching us chemistry…a bit sad and i wanted to thank her actually for my chemistry results. But didnt hav her number…maybe i should ask around tomolo. Our new teacher looked darn strict. But eventually he started making some jokes…SS! (Syok Sendiri) haha…he’s funny, laughing at his own jokes. But i can see he’s a fine teacher. : )

Today was suppose to go shopping with Jessie. i went out the coll back gate and saw Wee Kee, so talked a while, he lend me is phone to call her, and apparently, she couldnt make it. So i stayed longer and chatted wit him, well, i should say i found out a lot of things. Hav been outdated lately. Then i jus drove back home. Sleep a while…hehehe..actually quite long. I should learn not to sleep so much afterall it’s not a holiday anymore!

Thought of the day..well, i had a lot of thoughts today…but most of all, really wanted to thank God for i’ve realized i’ve been blessed by Him. Jus wanna pray tat i’m reminded of this gift everytime i feel otherwise. Many things has been pulling me down lately, and i know God sense it and gave me a nudge today. A little bread for strength to carry on. I hope for more sometimes, coz i feel tat it’s not enuf for me. I felt burden everytime a little pressure press on harder. Maybe it’s time to learn a bit of contentment. Sometimes u can hold on to things and sometimes u can jus let it ‘go wit it’. And usually things tat u let go, will come back to u. i mean USUALLY. i think it has to do with how much tat thing means to you. But if u r ready to let something tat u could die for ‘go wit wat God wants’ then u passed the ultimate test of faith. Giving up something is not easy. It does funny things to you, u cant sleep though u hav been working whole day, ur favourite food seems not so…favourable, it haunts ur every thoughts and action. But i think tat giving it up to God is the wisest thing to do. U know wat they say, the right thing to do are usually the hardest.

Yes Yes..goodbye 2005 and HELLO 2006! Hehehehe…well, a new year has come, how u guys feeling bout it? Hang out during countdown and hang over in the morning? Hehehe…i was at Sunway Lagoon Hotel during the last hours of 2005. Had a ticket to go to the event Miss Tourism International Pageant. Met a LOT of Leng lui’s there! Anyways, Miss France won, and Miss Taiwan second. Miss Malaysia did quite well oso, managed to get into top 10. Hehehehe…anyways, met a lot of cool ppl there, like Amber Chia and Carrie Lee (Maybe if my Bro is good enuf, she’ll be my sister in law). Hahaha…oh well, watched fire works after tat, didnt get a real good position though. But it was enuf. Hehehe…

Today went to the  Curve wit Mom and Dad. Tot it’ll be nice to hang out as a family. Hehehe..and it turns out, it was! Hehehe..we took pictures of the beautiful Christmas Deco and had Japanese food. Hehehe..not bad. They had high tech menus where u can click and order through a flat screen computer. Not bad eh?

Thought of the day, well, new year is here. Suppose to be excited bout wat’s ahead. But my new year has not started well, and i knwo wat’s a ahead this year. So far, nothing tat excites me. I got two gigantic exams tat are looking at me, and after tat, the big decision where to go, wat to do, and can i afford it?! ppl jus seem to get so happy bout the new year, and everyone is screaming on top of their lungs and shouting happy new year, but i wonder wat actually they think bout it? Why celebrate a new year if u r jus gonna go through it like u did last year? Not trying to kill the spirit here, but jus wanna know wat’s in ur heart when u count 3,2,1… For me, it didnt mean anything. I didnt know why. Maybe there’s nth i can look forward to, and i know i’m gonna feel the same thing over and over again. New Year’s resolutions? Cant think of any tat i will keep to the end. A bit depressing rite? : p there’s one i would like to keep, is to get closer to God. I wanna trust God more….put faith and hav courage to take risk. But somehow, it didnt start well, i only pray to hav better following days. Sigh! I need to get a life!

And this year started off wit all the things tat i dun like to do, like making decisions. IMPORTANT decisions. I dun even like to decide wat to hav for lunch, can u imagine me making decisions for the future?! Things i tot i had put behind, suddenly appeared beside me. I tried to tackle the problem by taking a risk. But no response=risk failed=got hurt. Was blaming myself for being stupid and decided not to touch tat matter anymore, but it somehow tapped me on the shoulders again! Darn irritating!! But this time, i decided i had enuf of making a fool out of myself. So i didnt do anything…but cant help feeling whether i missed a chance or not. Life is bout making choices i guess, celebrating on the good ones and learning from the bad ones.