24 hours a DAy…EnuF?
Monday, March 6th, 2006Hmm…when i say 24 hours a day enuf? Of course it’s enuf la…haha! God made it tat way! Surely it’ll be disaster if it has 25 hours or 23 hours! Hehehe…anyways, i know it’s been long since i wrote..Hehehe..i’m feeling tat i’m losing out on my journalling habits too. Time to chase up a bit. Hehehe…well, quick update, i’m suppose to be in my holidays now. I put the word ’suppose’ becoz it doesnt seem like a holiday to me! HAhaha…i’ve been to college almost like regular days. I have extra classes for one week…haha! (U call TAT holidays?!) But A-levels ma….wat to do? Sigh!
Well…jus came back from coll not long ago. Suppose to be tired, but surprisingly not, despite waking up 5.30am today! Hehehe… went to college, tot tat i’m on duty for the basketball club sales. But guess wat??! It was posponed to next week, but some smart fella didnt hav the ‘time’ to tell me. So, i sat there from 8-3pm doing maths! Head oso big al’d! hahaha!! Then afterwards, Inti is holding it’s Inti-closed for this semester. And i hav to help out around. Being the scorekeeper and all…hehehe! the game was exciting…i was sitting at the end of my seat…i mean literally! HAhaha!! Great game…going to continue tomolo..those interested can come and give support k? Hehehe…
ThouGht oF thE dAy…emm…actually these days i didnt update my blog is not only becoz of my tight timetable…but it’s becoz i’ve been having quite a lot of negative feelings. I didnt want to express it out here too much…making me seem like i’m some kind of saddistic person! Well…jus to update today’s thought…emm..funny sometimes when things happen, it doesnt sink in tat fast? So…u dun kinda feel it? But when time passes, u start to feel the sting of it. Ya…today, tat’s wat exactly happened. I tot tat i was over wit it…surprising myself tat i didnt as much attention as i tot i would be. But i found out today tat it was jus tat i havent recieve the full blast of it. And today, i felt the sting of it. Sad to say… Looking back at it, i blame myself for having negative thoughts. I know i shouldnt, but i did. I tried pushing it away, of course it’s easier wit frens around. But wit everyone gone…and it’s only u and the dead silence of the nite, tat’s when u are face to face wit urself, exposed, no where to hide…or should i say…no reason to hide. I really pray tat this matter will soon be over. A time when i could go back to my normal life again. I know i hav to face the consequences, but i dun wanna be the prisoner of this grudge. i hate this feeling within me…telling myself wat stupid thing i’ve done, and suffering wat i deserve. I know it goes against my principles…tat’s y i cant believe i did it. It’s jus so not something i would do! Sigh…only time will heal…and faith will tell...
~Emm…some of u may be reading my blogs and find tat the Eve u see on the outside…and the Eve in here is totally different. But i jus wanna tell u tat…both Eve u see is the real me. Jus tat i dun like to express my feelings outwards. Doesnt mean tat the Eve u see outside is fake. Both are the real me…hehe…just shown differently! So dun think i’m only sot sot on the outside, or actually i’m a serious freak…i’m both. Haha!! I try to keep it balanced…and expressing my character at the right time. So, dun get me wrong k? Hehehe!
