CrOssRoads…
Hey…here i am again. i actually dun know wat i’m doing here. i jus feel like writing something..so if this gets really lame, feel free to bail. I’m us having funny feelings nowadays. U know? U get tat feeling u really wanted something, u work hard for it, U try ur best to achieve it and when u are finally stepping into ur dream, a day before. U sit there, on ur bed..and u wonder:" Ok, tomorrow’s the big day…" But somehow it doesnt excite u as how u think it would be. Further more, it actually turns into fear…and u wonder r u really cut out for this. Kinda kills the mood huh?
Well, guys, i think most of u know bout the dare to dream thingy by now. And to be honest, i dun think i’ll be able to achieve my dreams…not as how i potrayed it in TV anyways. I’ve been waiting and waiting for this dream to be a reality, really, believe me, i’ve done everythign i could. And i’m darn frustrated bout it. I could simply say tat it’s unfair to me. But i guess tat doesnt change anything huh? Now tat i’m standing at the crossroad again, the road tat i tot once held my future seems to hold disappointment now. I looked and looked, hoping and praying it will be open to me. But now i can dimly see it’s unwelcoming path. Then as u struggle to face tat path, doubts seems to creep into mind. I’m starting to think…i’m not cut out for this. Suddenly the lights got cut off and u r left in the dark. Of course, many are around…ppl, searching for the same thing and yet finding nothing tat offers hope. We keep our heads tall as long as we can. Stretching our necks as far as we can…some given up…some still stubbornly foraging. I admire those who still have a great fire burning in them, moving them forward…yet, the fire in me seem to burn more brightly in time pass. Some are here to stay, some are jus passing by. But everyone has to come to a crossroad. While still sitting on the bed…i guess we jus shake our heads, crawl underneath our blankets,shut our fresh eyes and try to fall asleep…as tomorrow holds our future uncertain…and we need every drop of energy to pull through it before we meet our beds again.
